Masayang Umaga... sana.

Kaninang umaga nagising ako sa lamig ng hangin na pumasok sa bukas kong bintana. May ibon na gustong pumasok sa loob ng aking bahay. Tumayo ako mula sa aking malambot na higaan, para akong lumalangoy sa malambot na karagatan at nalulunod sa lambot ng puti kong comforter. Binuksan ko ng tuluyan ang aking mga bintana. Pumasok ang malamig at sariwang hangin... nakita kong nagsasayawan ang yung mga halaman sa loob ng aking kwarto. Binati ko sila ng "Good Morning". Tapos bumaba ako, gumawa ng kape at nag ikot ng bahay. Binuksan ang radyo at nagcheck ng schedule. Yikes! may schedule pala ako ng shoot ngayon kay Madame, what time ba? ay after lunch pa naman pala eh...keri lang!.
Gumawa na ako ng aking umagahan at kumain, pagkatapos ay nagbihis, pumunta ako sa likuran ng aking bahay. Walis walis, kinamusta at diniligan ko ang aking mga tanim na gulay at bulaklak. Parang pang fairytale ng bahay ko ah "Shabby Chic" motherfather!. Tapos  balik ulet ako sa loob, linis ng bahay, walis, punas, keme keme... tapos ligo... kahit malamig pwede na yan... tapos bihis at sakay sa kotse. Pupunta akong town, maggrogrocerie lang at bile ng merienda para sa client.
Pinark ko sa malapit sa Jollibee.. tapos dahan dahan akong naglalakad. Me mga nakita akong kaibigan, "oi! Leli musta na.... lumipat ka na daw sa kagubatan?" sabi ko naman" oo nga eh... masaya dun... tahimik kasi wala masyadong tao...." "ah... sige alis nako...." Naglakad na ulet ako ng napangite ako, me malakas na tugtog akong naririnig "I make my own sunshine..." pos me bumusina ng sobrang lakas...nasa tapat na pala ako ng office bulding.

Syempre joke lang ang lahat... ang totoo, papasok lang ako sa trabaho ko at galing ako sa Dorm ko na ala singko palang ng umaga eh me mga nagsisigawan na...

My shinning Star

Down under this grief, there was you

I close my eyes and tear fell, but then I smile and whip it

because I know there was you…

Up there in the sky…

Searching for and waiting to die

Maybe in heaven we could collide

Or if we have chance we could escape from this lie

happiness, you and I

I drag down my knees playing skateboard

I roll in the ground and see that this is my world

Then I see you up there, guiding me

Smiling and saying hey this is me

I'm watching you, please do things carefully

and I will just smile back, sure! and I will wait you patiently.

When dark conquer the sun

I just look up in the sky and have some fun

There sitting or walking in the crowd

Waiting for my star to be found.

Korporasyong Selda: Kulungan ng Malayang Utak

Sa malamig na opisina

Sa magulong la mesa

Sa tuloy tuloy na daloy ng pera

Nagmimistulan ka ng makinarya

Saradong kaisipan

walang mapaglagyan

Mapanlait na kamalayan

katumbas ay iyong kamatayan

Tinig ang nanliliit

tila bumubulong nalang ang hirit

Kahapon ideyang galit na galit

Ngayon ni isa walang masambit

Nakulong ka na! bobo ka ba?

Asan ang iyong pag-asa

Dahil ba sa tuloy tuloy na pera

Hinahayan mong hilahin ka ng bulok na sistema.

music to cover up

music to cover up

Amanda is a 30 year old woman. By day she is a clerk in an unfamiliar company named Not Your Business Corporation and by night she is a snatcher.

She always wear music, headset in her head' in work, in home, walking, eating. When watching tv she make sure the volume is loud. When sleeping she make sure the radio is on, when bathing she make sure her cellphone plays music. She make sure there is always sounds that she can hear.

Years goes by, she met her husband have 3 kids and get the life she wanted. Then one day, she's driving home with her daughter. Usual there is music in the background playing and the girl turn the music off. Amanda look at her daughter, ask why?? Then the daughter also asked why mom???

Amanda replied, why mom?? What?… Then the daughter look at her wondering and asked "why you always have music, you make sure you hear something, you act different when there is no sounds, as if you will die if you wont hear anything for a second??? Mom why???

Then Amanda take a deep breath, and tell the truth to her daughter.

First of all, I would like you to know this is a secret and don't ever freak out for whatever you will find out.

I do it for a purpose, I make sure there is sounds or music playing so I could divert my ears and mind.

If I let my mind and ear in peace and quiet rule my life… there could enter and scream on me.

The daughter won't understand her…

So she told the history.

I was a little girl like you when I started to hear things, scream and conversations. I thought it was normal or maybe I was just hallucinating or maybe I had too much creativity in my mind. But as time past by, my hearing problem is getting serious. At night when I'm about to sleep and close my eyes, I could hear in my head voices calling my name, saying something that I don't really understand. I could hear conversations of people that I don't even know. There are times I could hear creepy sounds of people like they are dying or in pain. At first I was so curious so I just closed my eyes and find where the voices came from then I was surprised to see those people. I can see what they're doing, the places and amazingly I could communicate with them and join with their conversation.. Then to realized that it weird so I just open my eyes so I could get out of there. It may sounds fun because you know its I weird and a little bit of crazy if you will share the experience with other people. Then from then it became regular specially at night when Im about to sleep and the house is quiet. But I was scared when I can hear different voices, and scary faces.. That was the time that I decided to not sleep and close my eyes because I'm afraid to see them. They said I should pray at night, it may be a gift or curst and God is the only one who could help me.

So I pray…. I was praying and then there they go again… screaming in my brain and ear… distracting me. I'm about to cry and just concentrate for my prayers. Then I open my eyes and scream "stoop it!! Let me pray first!!!!!" then they stop..and I continue praying.. Though there are voices still trying to distract me… I resist. There are times that I can entertain them, they're asking me things..and favors. Like I was a ghost whisperer… I just do it when I know the people they wan me to talk for them. But there are times that I don't really know them and the people they want me to talk.. they give names… and scenery but I don't really understand….

The daughter asked, who are they Mom? And why You?

Amanda answered, "I really don't know who they are, I don't know if they are ghost or souls or demon.." And I don't know why me???

Now…try to understand why there are always music playing around mom. Because mommy do not want to hear them at all. Mommy wanted a normal life.

Amanda continued her life, looking normally. Then she died at the age of 100. In her wake funeral, the daughter still make sure there is music playing beside her coffin. Her brother asked her, "Why you're playing music in Mom's coffin?" The daughter told the whole story, but her brother don't believe in her. He scream, Mom is dead she had no brain at all she cant hear anything at all she cant see at all, so stop this stupidity!!!!!! The brother put away the music and left the coffin in quiet.

The daughter just look at her mom inside the coffin, and she was shocked when she see her mom shedding tears… her eyes are moving but still closed and her fingers is moving like in pain. She call her brother to see what is happening. Then they put the music on again and they put the music player inside the coffin. Then her mom weird act stop.

After the burial, Amanda's grand daughter came over with her mom (the daughter of Amanda who knew the story).

Mama, I saw granny in the funeral. She was in pain…she's crying in the corner, running around you with Uncle. Like she was trying to say something…

"Did you talk with Granny??"

The little girl smile and said yes.

"What id she say to you:

She said, help her, put the music on again because there are souls running after her…

"Did you see them??"

Yes, they are like thousands of souls running after granny. Then when you put the music back they disappear and let go granny in peace.

"ahhh thats good…"

Then the girl look at her Mom in a sad face.

"Why??? Why your sad? Granny is in peace now… those souls let her go now.."

The girl whisper.." But mom, they're still here."

"where?"

In your back mom, they want me to hear them… what should I Do???

2 liner song

Me and my gay friend daniel

You don't now me at all...

Why the fuck you want me back???

maybe just because... you dont know me at all.